ow guts why 🙁 I just want to put my laptop on my, you know, lap
pros of today: beautiful weather, walked around a lot, didn’t waste the day doing the same things I always do, put on makeup, went to some new places, successfully dealt with the highway, tons of skincare
cons of today (and every other day): I’m not a worthwhile person. I’m unattractive inside and out, and I have nothing to contribute, and no one is interested in me.
I’m just not enough of anything to exist with other people. I don’t have the curiosity for it to occur to me to ask the right questions. I don’t have the empathy to pick up on nonverbal or verbal cues/make meaning from them fast enough. I’m a fucking text predictor scrambling to put one word after another.
i don’t know why i try. obviously my attempts are a joke. no one will ever be interested in me again.
time to sleep so i can go fail to connect with my parents at our next outing.