had a fantastic weekend w/r. originally the whole house was supposed to go, but d/t smoke theirs got canceled. our reservation was non-refundable, so we figured what the hell, there’s ac. things cleared up basically the same night we left.

we basically slept, fucked, ate, drank and poked around town. ideal. altho i feel gross abt how much i’ve eaten. that’s the most sexual attention i’ve gotten in uhhhh a while. i’m sore. xD and yeah, i do feel less insecure for the moment. on saturday he had to call j bc she needed a particular login, and after we had a tiny exchange like:

him: “J is so friendly.”

me: “Yeah, she’s pretty great.”

him: “I like her a lot.”

me: “She really likes you, too.”

him: pauses for a sec. “It’s so weird and rare to have friends I *don’t* wanna fuck. Do you do that, too?”

which was a smooth indirect way of handling it even if direct would’ve made me feel better

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we also saw such incredible stars. the sky was so clear, in contrast to this last week, and the moon wasn’t up at all. even from inside the car, i could see the milky way at a glance.

the drive back was beautiful. seriously, just…. so idyllic. we took backroads for a significant part and i was really glad we took the car w awd. saw parts of here that i’ve never seen. it was a very beautiful early fall day, sunny and warm with a little wind. the trees crowding the road turned the pavement into a shadow-dappled moving scene.

a really beautiful break from reality.

now we’re back here, with rbg’s death heavy… and m got laid off on friday. i hope she stays motivated and that her friends in the industry help her out. so now only 3/5 house ppl have jobs. i’m afraid that she’ll need help and i won’t be able to offer the same level of help that she offered me back in the day bc our house is so much larger.

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after we got back tonight, i finally put my shoes through the washing machine. i really fucking hope it helps. i need to fold laundry and help clean up in here so that r has a good workspace for his new job tmrw. and then this week i need to do the paperwork for my initial pt visit.

i also managed to squeak in cleaning the downstairs bathroom before the changeover tmrw, so that felt good.